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Hi O levels are in one months time, and I cannot
stress how impt this one month is gonna be for me.
So I won't be coming online unless necessary.

O level art submission is coming, and I'm rushing
through designs for my models. O's is stressful,
but we're all gonna pull through. Guys forget bout
the prelims, work towards O's! : )

Ok bye and until O's. You can ignore the rest of this post
but since I was taggged. I'm lazy to erase everything so
I typed mine beside. Here goes:


7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
1. i hate veg (ok yes I hate veg too!)
2. i whine damn alot at night (No I dont whine alot at night)
3. i love green! (Yes I loveee Greeeennn too!)
4. followed by purple my new colour (: (Eyyerrr no I dont like purple!)
5. i really really really want a driving license (I doubt I'll get one, I'll most prob fail)
6. i love to go overseas (WITHOUT PARENTS*) - (Iwant to go too!)
7. i usually cannot be bothered with alot of things (Same, which is bad!)

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1. cockroaches (Haha, eyerrr!)
2. lizards!! (Yuck yuck yuck!)
3. losing loved ones (Yes, totally ): )
4. when stupid mandy love to appear frm no where and give me a friggin shock (Haha)
5. hg finds out that she's hg (Ok redundant!)
6. when hg decides to not be friends with me (Redundant yet again)
7. watching dumb gruesome scary movies alone (Weird noises when I'm aloneee grrr brrr!)

7 RANDOM THOUGHTS AT THE MOMENT
1. getting excited for sch tmr (excited? yes I'm sure INTENSIVE's fun!)
2. when will hg be coming online (When g is not h anymore!)
3. how is the people over at taipei open doing (Prelims suck I wanna go Taipei too)
4. abt how some people can be so irritating (I miss bball!)
5. how my new blog skin will look like (It's freaking niceee!)
6. going for holiday at the end of the year! (YA MAN please!)
7. how screwed my bowling is (How screwedd my results are! ): )

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1. ohmygod (OMG!)
2. whatthehell (WTH!)
3. wtf (What on earth!)
4. hg (PAULLLLLL :D)
5. haha (I dont say haha! I laugh)
6. eh (Beeee Ceee Deee...)
7. stupid (Precisely! My gosh!)

7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS
1. Rachel
2. Fishball
3. Chow
4. Mel
5. Mavis
6. Pinky
7. Errr whoever who would like to do it

7 WEIRD THINGS ABOUT ME
1. during the hols my avg sleeping time was 4am (GOSH)
2. im addicted to auditionsea (Please, I'm still at level 2!)
3. i love school nowadays (Sure!)
4. i have a cute smelly babybolster (yeh and I dont have ): )
5. i find *e**i* cute (PAULLLL :D)
6. i pms damn badly (Really? Ok. I do too la, its a girl thing!)
7. my room's in a mess and im not doing anything abt it (AIYO wait til after my o's)



OK BYE! Study hard for O's.
Won't be updating alr. : )

posted by stacey @ Wednesday, September 27, 2006 0 Comments

SAY SAY SAY YAFFOOOO!
Ok not in the best of moods, esp when I did not
achieve expected results. But on a brighter note,
I saw PAUL! :D

Idol last night was fabulous! We had two extra tickets which were put to waste and seated beside me were Jon idiots - Jamie, Lyds, Bern, Mavis, Cheryl, Connie and Vanessa. I was the only idiot screaming and supporting for Hady! I mean, I went in supporting both Hady and Jon. But I preferred Hady, cos he has a better vocal and I've noticed it since I first watch him sing on the Piano Shows. And I was right, HE WON! And no, he didnt sing embers and envelopes! But still, he won! (HAHA, personal joke)

So basically the night was awesome! Seated at the vip seats with the few of them as mentioned earlier. Vip seats were all good. Seated near us were Jamie Yeo and Glenn Ong as well as some minister and a few news reporters. How cool! So you could imagine how close we were to the stage! I had hell of a night, everytime Paul came out to perform or whenever Hady's fans were asked to cheer, I'll be using the two long thing, banging them together to create really loud noises! I was screaming and screaming and screaming until I almost lost my voice! Artistes' like Tanya Chua, Taufik, Electrico, Energy and Rahima Rahim performed as well! Boy, you should have seeen Cheryl's face when it was time for Energy to perform! Haha. And while people at home were having commercial breaks, we were being entertained by two comical deeejays! Haha.

And in the midst of the show, Nat pig Long msged me: STACE VOTE NUMBER TWOOO! Haha! God knows where she was seating, but after the show when I met her outside the stadium, we ran hugged and screamed like maddd cos Hady won! Hahahhha. Nat and I were so silly last night I swearrr! Oh yes I took hell lot of pics toooo I will definitely upload them soon. I shall end off with PAULLLLLL! omg. :D

posted by stacey @ Tuesday, September 26, 2006 0 Comments

posted by stacey @ Monday, September 25, 2006 0 Comments

I often ponder over the nature of true human sincerity, true transparency. It is a rare and difficult thing and how much it depends on the person who is listening to us! There are those who pull down the barriers and make the way smooth; there are those who force the doors and enter our territory like invaders, there are those who barricade us in, shut us in upon ourselves, dig ditches and throw up walls around us, there are those who set us out of tune and listen only to our false notes, there are those for whom we always remain as strangers, speaking an unknown tongue. And when it is our turn to listen, which of these are we exactly?


With everything kicking in at this point in time, I've beeen thinking about so much lately. There's just so many things I can do with answers, yet I'm unable to for this. Within a period of months, I've lost amazing friends, only to find some really good ones before me who can actually bring out the best in me. I was reminicing - My life, filled with friendships that I lose and friendships that I keep, so much that I've learnt to be grateful for the many things and people around me. Only regret would be that I have learnt it the hard way. From which, I've realised life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to be happening next.

Every experience has always been a challenge in my life, with a hidden meaning behind it. Every thought that bubbles up in my mind could teach me things bout myself and make me learn and improve on it. I wouldn't admit to being a perfect friend, but I have tried my best to be there for all my friends and I've tried my best to reach out to them. I've tried my best to make them smile, and I've tried my best to listen to all their problems with the intent of understanding and cheering them up. I've always been there to listen - with the intent of understanding, for the message and the message behind the message, for both content and feelings, for others' interests and not just their position, for what they are saying and not saying, with empathy and acceptance, for the areas where they are afraid and hurt, and as I would like to be listened to. As much as I've tried, I'm unable to please all.

Its disappointing that when I look back on my life, plagued with many wrong choices and decisions that could have caused many resentments and regrets. But then again, one shouldn't keep looking back at the past. That I know, but it's way easier said than done. Time and time again, I have to keep reminding myself to put it aside and move on with life but nature seems to be working in me and it's hard to have them erased. I feeel so lost, to the point that I often fill my mind with questions such why do I keep trying so hard? When utimately I know I'm gonna be on the failing end? Whats the point of having a handful number of people, things etc when they don't really make much of a difference to my life? Whats the point of doing your best when you know you might not even succeed eventually?

I think I've come to this point in my life where I'm beginning to lose hope and faith in myself and all the things I do. It's the same routine everyday, - wake up, school, exam, stress, friends, worries, troubles and sadly I'm getting so sick of it already! There's so much and I can bearly cope putting on the strong, cheerful front and smiles that I usually have whenever anyone sees me. Simply cos behind that mask, its just a plain and simple girl, still in search for her identity, still unsure of what she wants out of her life, still overwhelmed by the hurts she has faced with throughout this period of her life. I think I've lost sight of focus in my life, and have let all these emotions take its control over me.

I've always consoled myself by constantly reminding myself that it would be alright as long as I've tried my best. I've always told myself to be strong and everything will be alright! Be strong, everything will be alright? I wish I could do that. But for now, screw alright! Screw strong! Screw bearing with it and that everything would be alright soon! Just screw it all!

I care too much, and at the end of it I ask myself is it all worth it? Will they remember you? Would they even be thankful for all that you've done? A question asked by Mandy a few days ago really strucked me hard, and got me thinking through it til this very day. It struck and hurt me how much I've been taking the things around me for granted. I always tend to forget to put people's feelings into consideration, so much that it simply evolves around me. Yes, they'll always be there when your happy, they'll be there to laugh, smile and play with you. They promise to be there when your down or sad or lonely but when that time comes, are they really there? How many times have they really been there then? It's been like this contant cycle. I take in words from one ear and put them out another ear - "I'll be here Stace" "Cheer up Stace" It's noone but me! Life to me now, is not as beautiful or pretty as how I used to see it and people are just fakes put in to make it all look happy. And then again I ask myself is it worth it?

Fuck this emo shit is getting over me, yet again. It's the night I swear! On a brighter note, I finally took a day off school and caught up on my sleep. Fuck the damn O's I want it to end so badly, yet on the other hand I dont want it to come just yet. The irony. Argh, I'm off to sleep. Last retreat in IJ tmr. Some pictures to brighten up this emo entry ---> http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2101748176

If only you would just stay as strong as you look

posted by stacey @ Thursday, September 21, 2006 0 Comments

Where have you been
Ive been waiting so long to hear from you
And all the things that we said we would do
Remains to be plans of the past

Things are so different now, and we're so distant. And the only reason why it could hurt so much would be cos I really treasured and loved you so damn much! How we used to go wild and crazy on photographs, play dumb games, have late night talks, listen to each other, shop like mad etc. But now, I guess everything is just falling apart, it's hard to even talk to you now. But I'll keep strong, with arms wide open I'll still be here whenever you need me. For now, I'll wash my hands off this.

I can't wait for the damn prelims to end.

Sometimes, I just feel so stupid. ARGH.
I'll talk when I'm ready.

posted by stacey @ Monday, September 18, 2006 0 Comments

YEY! After much procrastination, the undecisive me has finally gotten down to choosing a finalized theme for ART : ) I must must must must do it well, it's been one of my all time favs eversince I started attending lessons for it at the age of 5! : ) Haha, but back then my art pieces were all of my family, houses etc. - exactly what a small kid would usually draw with the crayons and colour pencils which seeemed so WOW then. Haha, I miss being a child :(

Anyway, church today was gooood! The twins and I woke up and made our way down to church for the Carnival, which was pretty much alright. Just that half the time, we were basically in the pool room watching the guys and Bel play pool. I was nowhere compared to them. Haha my stupid cue ball kept jumping I swear it hates me =( Clearing up was super fun, Tim was trying to wet us all with the stupid water hose while trying to clean up the dunking machine. Haha. After which, headed down to J8 with the twins for some shopping!

Back home, got ready and back to church again for Novena with the both of them! This time, managed to catch Ally, Nikki and Hetts! Ally's back from Aussie and it was good seeing her all again. Overall, I'm glad I went back to church. Caught people like Jamie, Pauline, Prema, Dave, Time, Bona, Debbie, Sammie, the gals and guys from C, Val, Tim, Matt all except our very own Ms Claire Chua! HELLO WOMAN WHERE WERE YOU I MISS YOU LA!

Ok I'm lazy to update anymore, I'm off for more art. In the midst of today, Camwhore with the twins! =) I'm happy, they're happy, we're all happy! Haha. I'll upload the pics another day, its way too many. And before I forget CHOW is going for obs tmr, and I'm afraid I wont be there to see her off tmr cos I've no schoool! Hehe. So take care yupp! And I'll see you when you're back and teach you yr accounts (disposal a/c) yes! OMG, I'm supposed to msg you idiot's obs shirt size I better do so now I totally forgot shit. Alright, I'll end off with a pic Ally and I took today, night all:

posted by stacey @ Monday, September 18, 2006 0 Comments

I ought to slap myself, I still can't get decided with
the theme I would like to choose for art. = (

Other than that, prelims are almost over with the exception
of Art and Chinese Paper 2. = ) Well everything has been
going well except for Sciences. Time to buck them up!
And well, I've been a PIG the whole exam period. Practically
sleeping the whole afternoon away, and staying up at night to
study. Prior to that, I'm totally drained and tired now I can't
wait to catch up on all the sleeps I've missed!

So I've finally got my fingers down to aud sea and I officially suck
at it. Haha, but who gives two shit as long it keeps me entertained
when I'm bored and stressed. Not to mention, Sab plays aud sea too
and we're both just as lousy. So yey! I love playing it with sabbb! : )

Spent the night at idiot's last night. At 3 in the freaking morning,
some moron wanted to order mcwings! In the end, I decided to be nice
and offer my superb culinary skills by cooking her maggie noodles. Haha.
Superb meaning standing aorund, stirring the noodles violently, and adding
hell alot of pepper! Hahaha. There were times, I was so tired I almost fell
asleep staring into the screen of the laptop. But the videos of so many many
many good bowlers around the world kept me awake. It was interesting to
watch and learn, felt like a bowling theory lesson though. Haha. Besides that,
we were being asses, disturbing poor Mandy's sleeep. As a result, getting
punched in the process.

And finally and lastly, I finally went back to church, with the intention of going for the Novena. It's been a really long time since I last stepped into svdp. Prior to that, I've certainly missed out on alot of stuffs and have missed so many people like CL youth, Claire, Debbie, Stelli, Julie, Bona, Dave, Mary, Fel, Sammie Prema, Jamie, Rachel, Gerri, Hetts, Nikki, AlvinT, GabeQ and Confirmants04 etc. I happily turned up at 7.30 (Novena starts at 8 during weekdays) when it started at 6.30 (6.30 on Sat, 6.00 on Sundays) I was so happy and excited upon arriving, I messaged Bona: "I'm finally in church! Omg, why is it so crowded! And why is everyone like lining up for communion alr?" He still could reply: "Woman now what time! it started at like 6.30! Haha, but the pig finally got her ass to church!" It's alright, I'll make it on time for tmr's Novena! =)

There's gonna be a carnival in church tmr, and I'm certainly looking forward to it. I miss volunteering and spending my time in church with CL! Can't wait to be back after O's. Feast day is in a few days time, and yey! I'm going for the dinner. Gonna be seating with Nikki, Hetts and Shaunna who is most prob gonna make me have hell lot of fun that night! Haha!

Shall end off with pictures then, NIGHT!









ook what I've found Confirmants O4:

posted by stacey @ Sunday, September 17, 2006 0 Comments

I won't be online anytime soon.
It's back to prelims again tomorrow.
So here goes: Happy birthday Bea, Sab and Belle! : )






For now, AUD SEA IS AWAITING MY UNCOORDINATED FINGERS!
Til then, I'm off. Will only be back after prelims. Study hard guys! : )

posted by stacey @ Sunday, September 10, 2006 0 Comments

IDIOT AND MANDY ARE PYSCHO!
Haha, I'm in the midst of my studying break
which I so nicely decided to spend with them : )

Stace let me draw him out



Ok, let me draw you out Stace


HAHA.
And I'm off to study.

posted by stacey @ Sunday, September 10, 2006 0 Comments

Something about you caught my eye
Something moved me deep inside,
nowI don't know what you did but
you had it and I've been hooked ever since
Christina Aguilera - Save Me From Myself


Isn't communication always best? Yey, things are finally settled! : ) I think I've grown a little through the process. I'm proud of it, so is idiot! Haha. She was shocked I made sense ok! Hahahaha.

Ok, I'm kinda trying to get use to this new tv dad got, its broad, its flat, and the sound produced from it is different compared to the older one.

Also, I finally had the chance to see a bowling ball get drilled! Dad brought my sisters and I after lunch to watch his get drilled. The process was so exciting and cool please! Reminded me of sec one and two dnt lessons, I miss sawing, drilling etc. At the end of it, you'll just be happy and sastisfied with the final outcome. Ok, but idiot just had to confuse me with finger inserts, thumb pluck, sand it down etc.

But she made it easier to understand later, with the help of the thousand and one bowling balls at her place. Haha, I learnt new things ok. Idiot, let me tell you what I've learnt. I've learnt, right handed the dot will on the right side, left handed the dot will be on the left side. And its to determine erm, how much it can hook or spin or roll or something right! Haha! See I've been listening! : )

Yey yey yey! Next I'll bowl and make sure three quarters of my attempt wont end up in the drain :( Hahaha.

Mrs Kunna's lesson this morning. Only four people turned up, she was rather disappointed. C'mon guys, she's trying her very best alr. Turn up for lessons! Ultimately, its still up to us all, its gonna be our results anyway.

Ok random post la. BYE!
Mandy's entertaining me. : )

posted by stacey @ Tuesday, September 05, 2006 0 Comments

"46 : 19 we did it, IJ! yey yey yey!!!! yipee yipee yipee!!!! im so DAMN HAPPY today!! its been such a long time since i felt that way :D (*smiley face) im being such an idiot i cant be bothered with myself i think im mad im gunna get 6 distinctions for my o's for 6 subjects then shayna will reward me with 6 dollars and im gunna buy 6 ice creams with that 6 dollars and give them to 6 of my goodfriends :D (*smiley face)"

Omg, a post Shayna did for me, on the day we had a match against Yuying. Shes over with Mel now, we just read it and burst out laughing like mad la! Hahaha. Since Mel left me with the blogging for her, I shall do the honour. Alright, firstly. SHAYNA AND I DID A GOOD DEED TODAY! : )

Which really brought me thinking. Why must couples these days resort to fighting? Why can't they just sit down properly and talk things out? Of what good would it be, seriously. Both parties just end up hurt eventually. And overall, communication would always be the best. But its sad, however, that many don't see it this way.

A couple fight which led to so much of tension and drama mama. Nat, Mel, Shayna and I didnt want to get involve initially, but it got from bad to worse. We were at the usual playground we always hang out at, and there, a couple fight broke out. Shayna was an idiot "Wah free show". Eventually, Nat, Shayna and I turned around to watch them. The China-assent lady was screaming and yelling, refusing to get up. The guy tried to talk to her, but the moment he threw and slammed the slippers on her, dragged her along the road, Shayna and I decided to call the cops.

Ok shant go into many details, its not anything nice. But the later process of it got worse, we called the cops a total of 3 times. In the midst of waiting for the cops, Shayna: "Lets listen to some music" -plays paris hilton's song "Should we call the cops again? Ok, after this song" OMG. Hahaha, idiot. "Oh shit she's running." Only when she was running towards us naked, only then we realised how major and big it was already. Shayna ran after her. People came out from their houses to see what the big commotion was all about. Called the cops again, this time to tell them where the lady was since she kept running. Ok cops finally arrived after how long please!

Alright, too lazy to type already la. Just merely wanted to help Mel blog, see how nice I am la. Haha, ok Nat's at Izza's. Shayna and Mel are over, we should be sleeping soon! Haha NIGHT. For pics go to Mel's blog. But since, this is such a long entry shall end off with a few to brighten off this entry.

Ok loook at that Idiot. "Stace, I iron. Eh I ironed at indo ok!"



Ok, I'm really tired of blogging alr. NIGHT.

posted by stacey @ Saturday, September 02, 2006 0 Comments